Who you really are…

Who you really are

Who you really are? Does anyone really know? Who they really are?

Some, I would say most, people go through their whole life not knowing who they really are. Not comfortable in their own skin.

I wonder if there are actually people who, from a very early age, know exactly who and what they are?

I don’t think so, even if they say they always knew. 

I think there had to be a period of self doubt before they knew who they were. 

Actually the closest person I knew who seemed to know who he was, since the day he was born, was my older brother.

I think he came out of the womb with his middle finger in the air, dripping all that afterbirth gue lol.

He didn’t cow to what other people thought of him, of course that led to a lot of trouble and discipline. But he really didn’t care.

Anyway, I definitely didn’t know who I was, and never felt comfortable in my own skin, it wasn’t until I really got into bodybuilding at like 15.

It seemed (seems) like I always need something to channel into to feel comfortable, whether it be bodybuilding, guitar, comedy, writing, jigsaw puzzles of rockstars…I need something to focus on, maybe because I still don’t really know who I am. 

Or maybe that is who I am…

But anyway, I was going to tell the story, I often go off on tangents lol…I am a slacker after all 🙂

For some reason I started going to this gym after school, I really don’t know why, I had no idea what I was doing.

I was really fucking skinny, like probably 5’ 11” 145lbs soaking wet. I played hockey, and totally fucking sucked at it!!! 

I was always getting plastered to the boards…if anyone ever dropped their gloves, I picked them right back up, and apologized on the spot…but I digress…

It had this weight room in it that was pretty big and fully equipped, along with a bunch of basketball courts and badminton nets, and 4 Olympic size swimming pools. 

I kinda sucked at everything lol. I liked to smoke pot, and watch TV, I was pretty good at that…what was I doing at a gym? But I gravitated to the weight room, I had no idea what I was doing, or how anything worked. 

Then a friend of my mothers, for some reason, I guess my mother must have told her I was going to the gym a lot or something, gave me a book called Education of a Bodybuilder by Arnold. I had heard of Arnold, but knew nothing about him. 

But I loved reading and devoured books. I read that book in a day or two, and it changed my life!

I Started following everything he said. Like a psychopath! And I mean everything! 

There was also this really big bodybuilder who was always in the weight room. His name was Tim. 

I thought his legs were too big, he was a little out of proportion, kinda like Tom Platz, if you don’t know who that is you should google him, his legs were what he was known for. 

Anyway, Tim was monstrous, more on him later.

Anyway, I started doing a 4 day split, which means you break up your body (there are different ways to do this), in half, and do half of it on Monday and the other Half on Tuesday, take Wednesday off and repeat on Thursday and Friday. Then take the weekend off.

I broke mine into muscle groups that mostly pushed and muscle groups that Mostly pulled. 

So on Monday and Thursday I did the ones that mostly pushed, chest (or in bodybuilding speak, pecs for pectorals), shoulders (delts or deltoids, which have 3 separate heads, or muscles that make them up, anterior, or front, lateral, or middle, and posterior, which of course means the rear) and tri’s or triceps, which also have 3 heads, or muscles that make them up, the long head, the medial head and the lateral head)…

I would do abs all 4 days.

Wow….this is going to be a long involved post lol. Do you guys really want to hear all this? 

I think I’ll post this and do a series of it…I need to get dumb though…holy fuck!! Ok, I’ll at least do the other half of my body in this post.

So on Tuesday and Friday, I would do back, which is made up of lots of muscles, the main ones be the lats, or latissimus dorsi, the traps or trapezius (which some might argue belong in the shoulder category, but for now we’ll go with back) and obliques, which are kind of on your waist, there are smaller ones that make up the back but we’ll just go with these for now.

Isn’t this riveting?  🙂

My Bi’s or Biceps, which are, you guessed it, made up of two muscles, the short head and the long head, they kinda join in the middle to form the muscle belly. 

There is also a bicep in your leg, in your hamstring. That is not the reason I did legs with back and bi’s, I did it because I really liked the idea of having chest shoulders and tri’s on one day and back and bi’s on another, I wasn’t sure what to do with the legs so I put them with back and bi’s

This made Tuesday’s and Friday’s pretty grueling, because there are a lot of muscles to train.

But that’s enough for now, I’m going to watch something dumb, maybe something about bigfoot on YouTube, while doing a jigsaw puzzle of the Crue…and probably go on amazon, and buy something I really don’t want, or need…just because

Much more to come….peace out bitches!!!