I am Evolving into…Me…

I am Evolving into…Me…

Yes, I am evolving into…me…

I wrote a post about evolving into who you are supposed to be. I am really actually doing that now.

I think I have been, ever since I wrote that long ass, Hunter S Thompson type diatribe, that is the main page of this site.

I think I said somewhere, I honestly don’t remember writing it. All I remember is coming home buzzed out of my head.

I continued to drink beers and maybe do some other shit. And when I woke up on the couch the next morning. It was on my computer. 

I think I had this site up already, and that diatribe became like my mission statement, or manifest.

I was just looking around at my place, and the transformation of it, since that writing.

The whole place looks like the coolest fucking man cave I have ever seen!

It’s the place I always wanted it to be. There are jellyfish fighting in a lava lamp type thing.

There are guitars I always wanted, hanging next to a painting of Mohamad Ali. 

A collection of vinyl, that never stops growing. A ridiculous watch collection that I never saw coming.

The coolest collection of Rockstar jigsaw puzzles hanging everywhere.  

I have a gigantic slacker couch that’s bigger than my bed lol, which I do my puzzles on, and just hangout on, and write dumb shit on this site while laying on it.

I am really getting close to being exactly who I want to be. Which is not giving a shit what anyone thinks about me.

That’s when you really become free. I always had a fear of being the real me. Of what people would think of me.

I still do at times, but not like it use to be.

I honestly am getting really close, I think that’s why I started this site. Not to care about what people thought of it. Just to write for me.

It got a lot of traffic pretty quick. Then I got some guy, that I never met, to supposedly optimize it.

What ever he did, had the opposite effect. Traffic dried up to nothing.

I wrote for years without a person even being able to see it. I didn’t care, I just wrote what I thought. I just wrote for me.

Then when I finally found a developer, who didn’t scam me, people started to come again.

They don’t say anything, and I don’t give a fuck lol…This site is for me, a place I can say cunt, and laugh about it lol.

I’d like it to become a really cool, like minded community, that’s the goal anyway.

This place is like my life…I think it is cool as fuck!!!!!!!